Unspoken-Unheard
[rxn]
45 - ELLEGARDEN
Our friend's show will begin in 45 minutes
But we are still a hundred miles away from the hall
We are at almost half way there
Driving fast to catch the first song he will sing for us tonigt
Our tires are flat
We could be running out of gas
It's getting dark now
Our headlamps are failing
Maps are too old
We don't even know where we are
But we have to go
We think we'll make it
Step on the gas
We'll be in time at least for the party after the show
Don't forget that we are here to have fun
NOt to throw blame around
We screwed up at the last corner
Then we had to make left turn to get back to the main street
We are almost there
Come on buddy
We are only 5 minutes late
You know the show could have been delayed
I will take you
I'll lead you there
I promise that I will take you
Now the tires are burning
We are at the edge of the town
It's dark now
But we see the bright lights there
We don't need these maps anymore
We are quite sure of
Where we are now
We are sure to make it
[lo siento]
i just got back from pensacola. really boring, but besides the point. on the way back, it was storming. like it has been for a while. oh what a fantastic light show. aside from the red and white car lights going in both directions, and the interlude of highway exit's mcdonalds and motel 6 signs... the sky, being sliced by never ending lightning. it was amazing. something i used to be afraid of. used to cuddle under my covers when i saw it, now left me transfixed to my window.
thats when it happens. its moments like this when i start to think more about things. as if i dont think about things too much already ><. i had 3 people already tell me im being so emo lately. i realize it to. i have been. before, i told myself i wouldnt be like that. not anymore.
just thinking about old times. when some things started and other ended. and how things are now. diffent. always differnt. good, bad, You tell me.
just thinking about how lucky some people are. and how im not so lucky. i never have been lucky really. though, some pretty lucky things have happened to me this year. really great things. but, as usual, things change, and those great things dont stay to great. fluctuations (spelling is wrong i think... too sleepy to look it up) up and down. always my fault. it always has been i guess. ill make it up to You. ill try. before its too late.
and if i miss that deadline, the only thing i can say, besides goodbye, is im sorry. im sorry for everything. for everything i did, and everything i didnt do (cliche!!! w/e). im sorry.
<3
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