Unspoken-Unheard
[rxn]
45 - ELLEGARDEN
Our friend's show will begin in 45 minutes
But we are still a hundred miles away from the hall
We are at almost half way there
Driving fast to catch the first song he will sing for us tonigt
Our tires are flat
We could be running out of gas
It's getting dark now
Our headlamps are failing
Maps are too old
We don't even know where we are
But we have to go
We think we'll make it
Step on the gas
We'll be in time at least for the party after the show
Don't forget that we are here to have fun
NOt to throw blame around
We screwed up at the last corner
Then we had to make left turn to get back to the main street
We are almost there
Come on buddy
We are only 5 minutes late
You know the show could have been delayed
I will take you
I'll lead you there
I promise that I will take you
Now the tires are burning
We are at the edge of the town
It's dark now
But we see the bright lights there
We don't need these maps anymore
We are quite sure of
Where we are now
We are sure to make it
[crawling]
i really dont know. kind of a lot of stuff all at once. too much stuff at once.
first off, my dad. that stupid fight. he told me to apologize for what i did. NO WAY! i refuse. at least until he figures it out and apologizes to me first. he just doesn't get it. he never has. and he never listens when i try to tell him. even when my counselor tried to tell him.
he even has to go and throw stuff at me and yell at me like a madman. saying that i changed ever since i became, and i quote, "a stupid faggot." that... ########. like it was helping. and trying to cut me off from my friends isnt 'teaching' me anything. all it is doing is making me even angrier. happy fucking father's day my ass ><.
another thing is school. my mind has been shifting non-stop about the future. i dont know what the hell i want to be years from now. i cant just say i want to be this because later on i may want to be something else. the least dad could do is support me or at least be happy. but no. it isnt about me. its about him. he says he doesnt want me to, quote again, "fuck up your life." i know what im doing. im not stupid. and... its my decision. not his. if i didnt want to go to college (which i do want to go), i wont. the point is he cant make the decisions for me like he always has. im sick of him always making all my decisions.
ack so much stuff craming into my head i cant think straight lately. driving me to do things i promised to myself and other people that i wouldnt do. i couldnt help it ><.
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