im finally free after almost 3 effin' weeks. its blown over... but not forgotten. i still cant really talk to him the same way and ive never hugged him goodnight or goodbye for anything. and things are still bitter. but i wont apologize. never.
on other notes...
we close this new house we got tomorrow. its an ok house. i didnt think we really needed it... and they used my Mu Alpha Theta Nationals money to help buy it. and i still havnt forgiven them for that. but the good news is, for the first time, in my entire life, i get a room for myself. i never had my own room before. its pretty kool. im sure all of you are going "damn" but yea... thats how limited my life is.
i finished driver's ed yesterday. im a horrible driver. dont let me drive you anywhere. at least not until i get more experience. what i really need to work on are my turns. ack turning too soon or too late or too wide or too narrow or turn the wheel too fast or too slow or not enough or too much. damn ><.
well i applied for my first job a while back. i doubt ill get them. its at l'auberge du lac hotel and casino. i applied for bus boy at asia, foodserver at le cafe, and host at le beaucoup. heh they still didnt contact me so i doubt ill get it. i mean... im still actually 15. i dont turn 16 for a while.
ack schedule conflicts. damn. i requested ap eng 4 gft, precal gft, phy adv, ap wrld hist gft, spn 3, ap chem 2, ap chem 2 lab. of course that wouldnt work out. nester called me today to work it out. she said she tried as hard as she could to make it work but it just wouldnt no matter what she did. i had to either phase down to eng 4 adv or precal adv or take out wrld hist or phy adv. damn it. i wanted to just drop wrld hist, but she said it still wouldnt work. so i took out phy and said ill move that until senior year. and in its place... i have to take health for first semester and work in the office the second semester x_X.
i got a letter today for an interview. some program will give you aid including : tuition and fees, room and board, books and supplies, transportation allowance, and misc personal expenses. that is a lot of money. and they said i can use it to any college i want and they are offering assistance in choosing a college, filling out forms for the aid and college, career planning, ACT/SAT prep, and help with educational strategies to help transitioning into college. i think thats huge. so im calling to reserve my times for the interview. so... cross your fingers for me and my other friends taking this opportunity ^^.
well... at least im finally free. i need to get out. im so... emotionally messed up. so much other stuff is going on too. but i know i'll be ok, though my skies are turning gray...