Unspoken-Unheard
[rxn]
45 - ELLEGARDEN
Our friend's show will begin in 45 minutes
But we are still a hundred miles away from the hall
We are at almost half way there
Driving fast to catch the first song he will sing for us tonigt
Our tires are flat
We could be running out of gas
It's getting dark now
Our headlamps are failing
Maps are too old
We don't even know where we are
But we have to go
We think we'll make it
Step on the gas
We'll be in time at least for the party after the show
Don't forget that we are here to have fun
NOt to throw blame around
We screwed up at the last corner
Then we had to make left turn to get back to the main street
We are almost there
Come on buddy
We are only 5 minutes late
You know the show could have been delayed
I will take you
I'll lead you there
I promise that I will take you
Now the tires are burning
We are at the edge of the town
It's dark now
But we see the bright lights there
We don't need these maps anymore
We are quite sure of
Where we are now
We are sure to make it
Friday, November 23, 2007
turkey and unity
turkey was pretty good today ^^. i enjoyed it even though we had to leave early. but i noticed, like i did last year, that the families here are very
not unified as the holiday signifies. my cousins are great. and they are polar in a way. one cousin, on my side, is filipino. the other not. they decided to host thanksgiving dinner this year. and like last year at my other cousins thanksgiving dinner, the two families of each of my cousins were very separate. one family in the dining room, the other in the living room. irony. its suppose to be everyone, together, mixed, around one table, eating together, conversing with each other. i always wanted to know why. none of us have anything against one another. and we do live in a world today where these kind of situations (racial differences) are bypassed (except for some extreme cases). everyone was warm to each other, just in separate rooms. but why is that? i cant figure it out. we're not that different. no grudges. just a family coming together in the same house to celebrate thanksgiving. maybe someone can help me? :/
: 00:16
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
sueno
i have been sleeping all day. it sucks. it was actually more like... lots of naps. like... id lay down, sleep, wake up, go back to sleep maybe 10 minutes later. anyway... the thing is, i had the same dream every time. and i have had this dream several times previously. i cant get it out of my head. its just a stupid dream that will never happen. never. even if the situation arose, i wouldnt let it happen. i wont let that happen again. everything i had to go through. never again. i still have some of the same feelings, and wish that something like that will happen, but its too much. i dont want it anymore.
just go away. let me sleep. let me have other dreams, dreams that might actually come true. dreams that wont make me cry when i wake up.
<3
: 20:54
What if...
i hate all these "what if..." questions that have been coming up lately. why can't i just forget them. they're useless questions that aren't doing any good for me lately. all they have done so far are give me these nostalgic dreams that make me cry when i wake up the next morning. it's not like i can go back and fix things. its not like i can just wish upon a star and suddenly everything is just the way i want them to be. i have to get over it. stop acting so immature. enjoy what's happening to me right now. look forward to
better other things. take what I learned from those past times and use them to make sure I don't err again.
you're starting to get it. who knows, you may actually get what you have been longing for afterall. and when you do... i know you will be able to keep it, cherish it, feed it. then those "dreams" can be realities. and you know what, there are people out there who want to "make your dreams come true." you just have to let them. you know that. you heard that. and you won't miss it again.
But what if...?
: 00:48
Thursday, November 8, 2007
Smile
How come I cannot smile anymore?
I am always thinking about something. I have become so stupid, so annoying. I said I was not going to be that. What the hell are you doing?
I cannot get over things. I let too many things weigh me down. Stop it!
I am being irrational. Get it right!
It is over. It is past. Do not worry about it anymore. It was b.s. Do not throw everything away because the first time did not work out. But, if this is what my life is destined to be like, there is no use.
Shut up! That was once. I understand you are hurt. So put on a bandage, kiss it, and keep going! But it will always happent.
No it will not! But there is nothing I can do about it. I am screwed.
You are right, there is nothing you can do about it; so why do you keep complaining?! You are not screwed. But how can I fix this if, besides that thing, everything is holding me back.
What is to fix?! You are being paranoid. You are letting stupid thoughts that are not yours get control of you. They are lies. You cannot possible believe them. But look at it, everything is going wrong for me. Look at where I am.
No, you are wrong. The main thing you need to get over is yourself, get over what happened, get over what you "think" is happening. Once you do that, look back and tell me if that is still the same thing you see. But...
No! Shut the f*** up! Listen to me! Only me. Not whoever else that is telling you all those lies. Just shut up and listen to me!
Smile. <:[
Smile. <:/
Smile. :/
Smile. :
Smile. ...?
: 00:06