my blog is dying. ill probably be making a new one sooner or later. its just been very hard for me to get on the internet
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lets see whats been going on:
well the biggest thing was Boy's State (June 29- July 5). overall, i thought it was an amazing experience and would recommend it to any strong-willed person. and remember i said "overall". it was definately not like i expected it to be. first off, we had to march in "tight 4's" everywhere we went, and Northwestern State isnt a small campus. and while we marched, we had to chant and stuff. and they would randomly make us stop at random places, sometimes ranging from 10 mins to half and hour in the hot blazing sun. it was hotter there than here in lake charles. i think i upped about 5 skin tones since ive been there (and lost a few lbs). and the most sleep i got a nite was about 4 hours. whenver the councelor called "muster", we had to line up in the hallway. if we dont, they threaten to shave our heads! and they could call it at any time, sometimes 3 am! so pretty much you couldnt go to sleep until they said we could. and if you did, they'd 'bear' you, meaning they crowd around wherever you were sleeping and scream "BEAR!!!" really loud into your ear to wake you up. and there was always work to do, essays to write, and things to keep you busy.
there was a dance at the end of the week. one thing we had to do was trade our boys state shirts for a girls state shirt at the dance, and there was a prize to whoever got the biggest shirt. i think the biggest one anyone got was a XXXL. thats pretty big. and there was an even bigger prize if you came bak with panties. and yes some ppl did get panties, including one of my parish councelors xD. on the last day of work, there was a firework show. one of the most amazing fireworks i had ever seen! i think i might want to take a trip there every 4th of july just to see it.
the whole expericence awarded me with great new friends, a better sense of how government and politics work, and a better view of myself, what i am capable of, and the importance of every single individual. ^^
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on july 13, i will be going to disneyworld! i am so excited to be going again. and it will be maya's first trip to disney world. the hard part is getting it all worked out. trying to find the best hotel (factoring in location, amenities, price, availability and condition), finding the right tickets and prices, etc. but im sure it will all be worth it. i will have updates when i get there so look forward to them ^^
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my ongoing academic/college search is beginning to narrow down. i decided to try and get into rice university because of the location, price, friends, and its reputation. the only thing holding me back is the majors. it doesnt have nursing and that has been my main focus for so long. if i find that the major is what i am really after, then i decided to try university of houston or something similar/closer which has an excellent nursing program there.
a bit more recently, high school is coming to an end and this upcoming senior year is bringing in good and bad expectations. i have enrolled in classes at 3 campuses, barbe, mcneese, and lcb academy. pretty hectic, but i kno what im getting myself into and i really want to do it. most of my frieds hav graduated, and some of them are moving away for colleges near and not so near so thats a bummer. but i kno i will always hav my friends support close by ^^. and i am really looking forward to being barbe's mu alpha theta math team president. i have so many expectations and i kno it will be a great year. all i need now is for my schedule to work out.
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i am happy to say that i have grown, and that i have figured more things out. loose ends are, for the most part, tied up. the past is now actually becoming "past" to me now. and i can say now that i have moved on. im becoming more and more myself than i ever have been before. just need a little bit of polishing :]. i just hope that this will bring more relationships, more friends, more fun, and better self-esteem which i seem to have been lacking for about 16 years. i look at myself and feel proud of the progress ive made, and the path i am now on. i have put all my past feeling away and now accepting new ones. i no longer have the grudges i once had for some ppl. i dont hate, envy, or dwell with certain ppl anymore.
i hope my friends, and other significant people in my life, can also look at me and be proud. for once, i do something for myself, to better myself, instead of using myself as a pawn for others.
this, i think, is the biggest accomplishment of this summer.
all i need now, to top it all off, is that crazy four-letter word...
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